Cogito Ergo Sum...but I know im just dreaming

Buffalo

2012-01-24T16:06:00.000Z

.......its about time these babies arrived

this pic will do for now

2012-01-21T20:02:00.002Z

i keep dogging the camera lately but i promised a pic of my hair so here me and my house mate lost on her birthday

its much much greener in natural light and the colour is teal which i mixed myself

better pic to come :P

pinknipplepeircing

2012-01-18T16:13:00.003Z

so much for 2012 my life couldnt be more frustrating been practiclly lying in bed all week avoiding having to deal with phone calls unreplied messages and ever so charming deadlines....and now things just seem to have gotten worst. I guess i have to face the facts

-"your walking this journey of life barefoot and the people ahead of you just keep dropping a shit load of crap for you to step on..."

.....and one pill makes you small(and when you take them all?)

2012-01-13T19:34:00.003Z

what do bloggers use as an excuse for not blogging? "Im working on a project that I cant quite tell anyone about" and im like uhu...FUCK OFF
but you guys IM seriously working on something so excuse my absence(it will all be worth it in the end, her loved said after he killed himself)

everytime somone notices the colour of my hair.....

2012-01-13T19:28:00.003Z

have you guys given up on what my hair colour might be? its seriouslly wicked cool

how man cropped white T's can you see?

2012-01-13T00:04:00.002Z

can you guess the colour of my hair? if so i promise ill be back hahaha

2012-01-05T15:34:00.004Z

2011-12-31T16:16:00.004Z

......please god let 2012 be my year

its christmas in sweden...but now I'm in southampton so when can i open my presents?

2011-12-24T16:35:00.002Z

my new shoes are out of this world

2011-12-10T18:18:00.003Z

...vintage. oh and yeah this blog is getting a bit to pink don't u think?

all i want for christmas is you....

2011-12-09T16:40:00.011Z

1. Toki doki Vinyl toy
2.Buddy holly style waifers(optical ofcourse im fucking blind)
3.Leopard printed creepers
4.perfectly stripped and knitted kurt cobain-sweat-drenched jumper
5. Alexandr wang Hobo bag in burgundy(or the brenda one in burgundy...cuz we all bleed burgundy)
6. a mint condition Sailor moon doll by Bandi. I had an exact doll growing up, she was seriously my best friend(she even introduced me to my real first best friend later on in life) and id take her with me every where even to parties... now ive lost her in a bunch of boxes i dont dear to open.
7. Holes pretty on the inside on vinyl
8.Tickets to see NIRVANA Live in concert this March(1994)

a perfectly grey girl in a black and white world

2011-12-09T16:40:00.010Z

sleepy hollow reality

2011-12-09T16:14:00.005Z

They say you want what you know longer HAVE, I say I want what i never HAD, what I can't possibly GRAB, what nobody could personally CRAFT for me, a world where things just happen to make me GLAD. No I know longer could be SAD if I HAD what nobody COULD HAVE, what nobody SHOULD HAVE because its so far out in my imagination to for YOU to GRAB. It makes me SAD that I cant HAVE what nobody COULD HAVE, I don't want to SHARE my DESPAIR with people who don't CARE I just want to be FAIR, and be left alone, dreaming of things i COULDN'T possibly HAVE.

If I can't have a world then give me a ROOM, I place where I could at least decide if i wanted to INVITE YOU....

Hysteria

2011-12-01T14:48:00.004Z

click image for song...

Daydreaming, because life is a NIGHTMARE

2011-11-28T15:37:00.005Z

colour pallet: Arabian Nights

2011-11-24T18:48:00.004Z

My winter colour inspiration...not on my face because I dont actually wear makeup unless im sick and then it usually just is foundation, mascara and eyebrows(so enough for me to get on when im leaving my apartment in the elevator...i live on the 10th floor)....but more of a winter apparel colour pallet.

I dont want to do this anymore

2011-11-24T15:56:00.002Z

Blog that is...ill try but...i might not....or at least i cant keep up with the constant updates like the rest of the "bloggernistas" because thankfully my life dosent revolve around a fad and so despite having a life picking up my camera and thinking "oh this will be a nice post" is more like.....fuck that shit these shoes are on sale!
Anywho, until next time....

its been a while

2011-11-16T23:07:00.001Z

since some form of collage outfit post was on here...

winter shades

2011-11-16T22:06:00.001Z

2011-11-08T17:34:00.006Z

did she say anything at all.....

wallpaper...(scratch me and you'll see how I feel)

2011-11-07T18:23:00.009Z

new vintage black silk slip...love it to a tee...which is why last night i accidentally broke one of the straps...i guess nothing beautiful will last forever...or at least not with me.

....would you?

2011-11-07T01:16:00.004Z

....a perfect day for a quite friend

2011-11-06T18:21:00.000Z

come into my room....

2011-11-02T00:57:00.004Z

okay...so ive been...distant.
BUT in my defense ive been distant from pretty much everyone so dont take it personally.
Finally feeling a bit more...awake, so I might get back into my normal routine of things like.........hmm, ill have to get back to you guys on that.
On the upside? ive updated my blog with something other than emo rant of discontent.

A couple of posts ago i asked you guys what youd do if life wasent such a burden and i never got around to answering that.
Well Id live by the beach and writte. Id have a nice trailer that Id live in, blasting all kinds of profanities. Id probably have separate trailer which id convert into a comicbook stand/vintage flee market thing where i the only way you could buy something is by exchanging it with something i want.
I dont know if life wasent such a burden id probably kill myself without feeling bad about it.
Anyway, here are some pictures of my room...there pretty old...nothings relly changed other than there being allot of dust everywhere, empty bottles and mustard stains on my sheets (i love eating hotdogs in bed... which my roomate finds highly disturbing) speaking of roomate ive got to do a post on her hair...its right about as red as my wall.
Talking about red...i hate that colour....yet my room seems to be dominated by it(the walls looked this way when I got the apartment)
apartments still pretty...minimalist....im not good with money......need to get a couch soon
hmm...im seeing smashing pumpkins tmrw?

2011-11-01T17:58:00.002Z

this to, will do...for now

2011-10-28T18:50:00.004+01:00

....speechless, well i don't blame yeah.

Ill try to get around to to a proper post soon...but this will sure be entertaining enough

Trish Summerville x H&M

2011-10-26T19:21:00.003+01:00

OMG! Literarily this is my colour pallet and Lisbeth Salander is my kinda gal(part of the surprise which i have yet to come around to show you guys)

The H&M Girl With a Dragon Tattoo collection is set to launch exclusively at the Colette department store in Paris on 28 November, before rolling out to 180 H&M stores worldwide and online from 14 December.

stolen

2011-10-25T19:32:00.004+01:00

from studded heart...thats how much i love this outfit

LOVE

2011-10-25T19:23:00.007+01:00

Givenchy Haute Couture fall 08

2011-10-21T16:51:00.005+01:00

...negative beauty

2011-10-20T18:01:00.002+01:00

don't you love the on off play of these patterns...
i believe its styledevil?

2011-10-20T00:36:00.002+01:00

2011-10-19T20:45:00.007+01:00

....feeling bit down, considering pulling a knigttcat and never coming back...but ill try to come to my senses..just not today

PS. thanks Olivia, ill try not to be so melodramatic...if its not much..could you ask Ryan(gosling) to call me back...he hasn't returned any of my threats...i mean texts

AEON FLUX

2011-10-13T21:31:00.004+01:00

marathon? YES PLEAS

its all human behaviour

2011-10-11T23:34:00.004+01:00

i don't think id be so manic depressive if it was alright to do whatever the fuck you wanted.

if society wasn't as uptight as a beverly hills housewives face.....what would you do to your life, self, hair, boyfriend, career, money, body, family(?)

drop an answer, ill share mine with you guys later...

little sister...

2011-10-10T20:36:00.003+01:00

can't you find another way?

dedicated to my little sister and how every summer when i come over we slowly morph into the same person.

Like walk down stairs and realise that where wearing the same freaking outfit(she's an indie hipster and im...not...but we tend to morph into the same person....that person that made us sisters)

you know that game you plaid as a kid with the slidey board shit to make a person out of mismatch personalities

2011-10-10T20:30:00.004+01:00

that's sort of my life, a mismatch of personalities that sort of don't work

CHOCKER

2011-10-10T20:28:00.001+01:00

Fade into you...

2011-10-10T20:19:00.002+01:00

whats on my mind this month. Halloween, dying my hair purple because frankly why not? The song by MAZZY STAR, thats been popping up at the wrong time in the right place and I'm starting to believe that its trying to tell me something? Whats your interpretation of the song? Rookiemag(I'm to old for the place but i still love it) Witches and how i used to want to be one(a bad one of course), my spells that i used to pass of as poems as a kid(I've got one to make the wind follow my command) Bjork and her new album, Blue hair, being depressed and living in a shell of guck secondhand smoke. Early nights and late mornings, A boy, any boy, something to vent my angst out on, my vintage Lithium record by NIRVANA which i cherish so much.

Id love to love but I'm going to settle with hating it.

2011-10-08T23:55:00.000+01:00

isolation

2011-10-03T14:40:00.015+01:00

So since i moved down to Stockholm from Brighton my life has been sort of...AWKWARD.
I've got classes at uni on a freaking Saturday, everyone seems to be to old or illiterate for me to talk to. Outside of uni, Sweden isnt to "famed" for its night life and we all know how much I love to go out and never come back home. But the reality is....I barely leave my room anymore.
Which is kinda sad yes, but ive been doing allot of online shopping if its any consolidation?

Not so much working, sufficient amount of studying, but mostly allot of sulking.

The other day i went shopping on my own, which has become a new norm and i just hated that feeling of being the only one on the train with no clue about anything.
I mean if you ever catch me on the train...ill probably be sitting on both my hands in an effort to stop fidgeting while looking down on my feet listening to music nobody wants to hear.
Yeah im kind of sad, but they keep telling me ill get better.(right now im planning something a bit more sufficient....)
On the upside, got a great apartment of my dad, a really nice roomate who happens to be an old childhood friend...but my interior design skills has proven to not have translated just as well of my the sims 2 game.
you can probably catch a peek of my room in the background.
I've got to stop spending my money on clothes and start buying furniture soon...

then again that makes this life permanent...and id like to think of things as temporary...makes life easier to bear.

I don't know if u can tell but my hair is navy blue...I want to dye it purple though :) any good dye tips

WHAT DA HELL IS SHE WEARING

2011-09-28T02:39:00.001+01:00

....on her feet

Shenna is...A PUNK ROCKER

2011-09-28T00:12:00.003+01:00

...with platinum blond hair and a platinum card.
But for the rest of us normal folks, let be real punk and steal it, Winona circa mid 90s style
(I think Marilyn Manson would approve of those boots)

2011-09-27T23:30:00.000+01:00

and she was left black and blue

2011-09-22T15:33:00.007+01:00

Jumper// Weekday, Asymmetrical Dress// TOPSHOP Boutique, Backpack// TOPSHOP, Wedge Shoes// ACNE.

im not even going to get into my life, lets just say I had to opt out of London Fashion Week because of a presentation and after everything...im still pissed of and annoyed as ever.

2011-09-21T23:16:00.006+01:00

i dont know what i love more...fining an awsome record...or just flicking through them

2011-09-21T12:17:00.005+01:00

So its getting pretty cold and the transition from fall to winter is barely clear here in Sweden(or at least for a girl that hasn't lived here for the past 5 years) Im dreading the idea of the snow hitting the ground, having to replacing my heels for skis(i joke..), simply changing fashion...to practical fashion...which isn't that fashionable at all.

So my old ways of getting away with simply layering allot underneath my coats this winter(or fall) just won't do I think I'm going to have to look for something that actually is warm, not just appears to be.....

Try it yourself...

2011-09-19T00:11:00.010+01:00

see the entire post here

(I've got to order me some spikes now)

whats your theory

2011-09-15T19:20:00.002+01:00

2011-09-15T17:58:00.005+01:00

Used and abused....

2011-09-14T19:05:00.007+01:00

2011-09-12T20:53:00.002+01:00

I wish i could be just like you, pretty and not quite as confused

2011-09-12T18:58:00.010+01:00

2011-09-08T21:03:00.003+01:00

SHOE/FALL

2011-09-08T20:50:00.004+01:00

This is my idea of the perfect(okay thats to big of a word) shoe this fall. Great colour, such great Height and a nice chunky heel that you not mind walking in the park with, but would shire be one mighty fall.

Now if I recall correctly these never went into production but Opening Ceremony did receive a couple a while back...but there sold out so thats out of the question......

UGH! why must it take me a season or three to finally realise I wanted something of a collection.

Im contemplating the Acne Atacomas (if i win that darn bid) but, Hey! Whats your ideal fall shoe this (or the previous) season?

2011-09-08T20:49:00.003+01:00

Listning to right now

2011-09-05T09:30:00.005+01:00

click le image

(this would so be the opening theme to my own show)

last days of Summer

2011-09-05T09:15:00.003+01:00

...but I love you more when you're dead

- Billie Jean

I love autumn and I have yet to make the perfect post or montage to resemble that love.

For me autumn used to be all about going back to school and regaining that suicidal urge. Not regretting, not, wearing a bikini just once

Listening to Death Cab for Cutie's Plans album on repeat because its so totally my soundtrack... every single fall.

Sunny mornings and soggy green grass making your converse(don't really wear mine anymore) freezing wet.

Crunchy leaves beneath your feet.

How I love to pick crunchy leaves.....

How I always decide that this fall I will feel this thing called love for someone else

How I always know it will never happen just because I say so....

How grunge apparel suddenly makes sense in fashion

...and how id rather spend time outside...then my wasted summer indoors with the blinds mostly shut and me mopping about how I've been mopping for the past 21 years and how it isn't cut to be all angsty and at my age and that I'm probably depressed....

and finally how online shopping just always seem to do the trick...

Stockholm...be nice to me this fall and ill promise to be more mature about people(who are stupid)

reading right now.....

2011-09-03T22:36:00.002+01:00

Desert

2011-09-03T21:54:00.001+01:00

....your tears shall eventually dry, we'll all die

...to build a home

2011-08-31T21:32:00.001+01:00

Just got the keys to my place, moving in with my awesome friend, the place looks great....I can't be happier :)(or i could but u get the point)

.....you missed a SPOT(s)

2011-08-30T21:47:00.001+01:00

Catwoman

2011-08-26T21:47:00.001+01:00

2011-08-26T00:59:00.002+01:00

I'm FREAKING out about packing for Sweden. With my limited luggage I have to decide what to take now and get later. My shoes alone would constitute excess luggage and I'm frankly having bad sleep over this....what will i do with just 8 shoes....5 coats....12 jeans....14 tops and 9 dresses.....:(

green eyes, you’re the one that I wanted to find

2011-08-24T19:51:00.001+01:00

im actually more smitten with that blue fur coat :)

Just in:

2011-08-23T14:07:00.001+01:00

I NEED I NEED I NEED I NEED I NEED, OH GOD I CANT BREATH!!! THATS HOW MUCH I NEED THEM!

I miss world.....

2011-08-22T02:40:00.009+01:00

this gif drove me and my little sister crazy
(first moving that darn record 31 steps having to edit, copy then past AND then save it each and every freaking time, then look everywhere for a gif maker that will take over 10 images.....THEN! after finding one... realize that it scrabbled the order up and further strain our eyes was required to measure and watch that boy/girl tilt his head accordingly while holding that stupid crown)
sitting up till almost 3am with our eyes all bloodshot and stuff. hoping to get this over with so that we could proceed to watching Dylan McKay's father getting blown up in a car(obs spoiler alert) and watch Dylan fall to his knees on the parking lot covered in rain..and eventually Dylan's father
You better like it...we put our heart and soul into it...

2011-08-21T00:27:00.003+01:00

Proenza Schouler, Rick Owens, Chloe Docs, Balenciaga Cutouts, Blue Toed Alexander Wangs(I WANT! More then the Chloe Docs? OF COURSE NOT), Velvet Dr Martens and Rick Owens..again

1992

2011-08-19T03:57:00.003+01:00

Giovanna Battaglia in Stephen Sprouse

Wanna know what I was wearing in 1992....DIAPERS!!!

You can actually get it here...I sort of don't want to link this page...mainly because im hopelessly trying to get my grubby hands on it for Christmas(I know they'll say no but its always been a yes after a bit of "but i REALLY REALLY like it *sad face)

is it Fall yet?

2011-08-19T03:43:00.014+01:00

Chunky boots, heavy knits, morning darkness, distant love, layering and sexy dark lipstick, days spent walking endlessly, crunchy dead stuff under your boots......these are just a few of my favourite things.

Probably the only season all that grunge wear ever makes sense.

I love Autumn...(you've always been good to me)

Thats me in the corner....

2011-08-19T03:43:00.009+01:00

Its times like these

2011-08-19T03:39:00.003+01:00

we learn to hate again
wearing my Chloe Docs

Buffalo Soldier...

2011-08-17T17:14:00.007+01:00

I Vote Pixie Geldof as president my I LOVE the 90s club(hint hint)

She even has a band called VIOLET(major br0wnie points scored there for the HOLE reference)

"Light Oh my gaah"

2011-08-15T19:26:00.002+01:00

Vanillascented, I wish you could come over and edit down my closet to that crispy clean aesthetic you do so well.
Minimalist truly is a privilege

hmmm.....

2011-08-12T18:05:00.004+01:00

.....well seeing as im now defiantly moving back to Stockholm at the end of this month and starting my Masters in IP Law, needing to find a job, furniture cuz the place is eeemmmppttyyy, a roommate(do you love 90s alternative rock and death metal?enjoy the company of a neurotic insomniac...you might dear live with me?....seriously let me know)
shaving my head seems like the only way I can release some steam right now....
Oh and hey Liv ill try putting a couple of work wear looks up at some point its just that ive already finished my summer internship that id have put my looks together.....

TAKE IT BACK....

2011-08-12T17:53:00.003+01:00

...to The 90's
-Ann Sofie Back
image source Wedge Heel

It suits you...

2011-08-10T20:01:00.008+01:00

Kirsten Dunst at that CDFA thing....megh.
She look good though, may have done without the hoop earings but the fact that hear nail polish matches her EYES...WOW.

....you look smashing tonight

2011-08-09T19:31:00.006+01:00

If you have to go don’t say goodbye If you have to go don’t you cry If you have to go I will get by Someday I’ll follow you, and see you on the other side
-i want to be adored

.......

2011-08-07T22:57:00.003+01:00

and when she returned to her crystal castle there was nothing but shattered glass.
The moment her heart was broken...so was her world.
Foaled that she resided in a world of diamonds, solid in its law, just with its beauty.
She was equally foaled that she lived in a world of love.
there lay no truth in what she saw or felt, she was simply to young to know
WEARING: cut-off H&M shirt, Vintage white leather skirt and Stella McCartney wedges

Frances Bean will have her revenge

2011-08-06T19:00:00.004+01:00

Probably the soul individual id love to morph into if I ever had a choice to never be me again.
The Frankenstein like creation of greatest pioneers of 90's alternative rock, Kurt Cobain and Courtney Love....they sure left a legacy behind them.
I recall reading an early Teen Vogue interview on how she didn't want to follow her parents foot steps and become a musician (WHY NOT) but would rather be a fashion designer.
Now she's better recognized for her goolish art work that is very reminiscent of the style that her late father shared.
She's really become her own woman...im going to stop now before my new found obsession with her becomes an endless rant.

Dress for....

2011-08-06T01:27:00.004+01:00

success this fall and employ a top to toe singular smart choice of fashion.
Much like the minimalist, androgynous and crayon(one colour all the way) look, you'll be doing the recession a favour and investing right.
I'm not abandoning my love for the 90's but may have to make some adjustments if I want to be taken seriously in my profession(for now...)

obssesing over....

2011-08-05T02:57:00.016+01:00

90's Angelina Jolie(you should see her in the movie hackers...)

Starlight starbright....

2011-08-04T00:43:00.000+01:00

Jumpsuit purchased at ZARA...on ridiculous sale

and she wore a dress by....

2011-08-03T02:56:00.001+01:00

Gareth Pugh.
While I was to busy accepting a diploma Katie Shilingford got married
.....could I ever get married

2011-08-03T02:46:00.001+01:00

2011-08-02T22:48:00.001+01:00

(3) One Rings to rule them all

2011-08-02T02:07:00.007+01:00

Ring to find them, One Ring to bring them all.......
and in the darkness bind them
Wearing Zara Coat, top and sequin shorts, Ashish Wedges, Topshop Backpack, Topman rings and UO Sunglasses
.....my legs are fat goodnight

oh so ssshhhh ssshhhh ssshhhh....

2011-08-02T02:05:00.002+01:00

TREND: Denim on Denim

2011-08-02T02:03:00.002+01:00

Inspired by

2011-08-02T02:01:00.001+01:00

Next step in life...I better make a run for it

2011-07-30T13:54:00.004+01:00

Law degree, still healthy, still single, still me....

Now?........... New place! New Change New mood!New Closet?

YES PLEAS

Coming of age...

2011-07-29T00:34:00.002+01:00

Tomorrow I graduate.....

....nothing exiting but if you'd like to see me sleepwalk across stage, pop some popcorn get out you low fat strawberry yogurt and go to this link HERE at 10:15 am British time

there will always be GAPs found in his thruths

2011-07-27T03:13:00.001+01:00

2011-07-24T00:48:00.002+01:00

Lets take a break f(r)o(m)r the 90's

2011-07-23T01:34:00.008+01:00

INSPIRED BY

2011-07-21T21:09:00.004+01:00

Stop it right now, surf over to her blog right here

This sunday I dyed

2011-07-18T14:37:00.008+01:00

Yves saint Laurent AW 08

Prrrffect

2011-07-17T00:54:00.013+01:00

Catwoman meets Enid Coleslaw, need I say more?

Where talking Latex, Velvet, Fur and Masks...on paper this may read as one screwed up porno.

However, one things for sure and thats this collection indefinatly being fully capable of getting any lover Riccardo Tisci to get all hot and sweaty.

With is subtel sexiness, the drop hem mesh brings an allure that can only be associated with the natures sleekest feline, the Puma.

She's classy, and the animal kingdoms version of the LBD. There simplicity yet captivating apperance makes for an exellet collection of garments for the those lady interested in taking a walk on the wild side.

...and that cap...well its simply captivating.

(im to lazy to correct that tipo...)

2011-07-16T04:17:00.000+01:00

Simple sample

2011-07-16T02:11:00.004+01:00

Wearing T by Alexander wang dress which can be purchased at my favourite online store SSENSE, a store that shouldnt be visited by anyone that into the minimalism...it will seriouslly make bankrupt you