why do i keep making these things lol

LOOOVE

 love this guy so much i mean he has a freaking nose ring and is so deep and insightful and aaarrrggghhh, he is the love of my life i ant ever stop squealing when he comes on(top of me), Watch the real world Boston!!! actually watch all the real worlds until like 98 there so awesome!!!

Junkie? No GRUNGIE!!!

shy away.....runaway, won't you be better of without me
This is like my favourite everything. Jacket, coat, throw over, blanky, cloak...whatever you want to call it.
Its got that nice 80s wall street bum look going (all its missing is a trusted bowler hat...hahah remember how id always wear one but it sadly got run over on a night out :P)

It was a major bargain, cost me like 30kr/3pounds/3euro!!! I say major because i wouldn't have a problem paying ten times that price.

Im not fond of folk that go "grunge" or whatever with hair thats been styled to look unkept and make up done to look 4 days old. Thats why I'm proud to say I haven't washed my hair in 2 weeks now nor combed it (this isn't by choice) and don't wear make up when the rest if you looks like shit its so contradictory to whatever your trying to express....my tip if you don't look good natural (which is a good reason to stop wearing make up and taking care of your skin) wear big sunglasses!!!
My eyes have gotten really sensitive so even at work you'll find me sitting behind a table with my sunglasses on lol.

now before i resume to my nothingness I shall leave you with some wise words
"You have to allow yourself to fail in order to achieve something"

Ive had a big problem with pretty much everything in my life when it comes to failing. Friends relationships, jobs, studies, i mean you name any aspect of everyday life!!! I literarily had to sit and contemplate the risks in every action I make. Making actions like make dinner, step outside of your room, talk to that person, be honest and don't be afraid of the truth kinda shit hard.
Which obviously resulted in my overlay secluded personality.

BUT, then my oh-so-wise friend asked me "whats the biggest failure you've made in life?"....and i was rather shocked by my answer. Nothing. Ive never really failed at anything. Maybe not had things gone my way but it always turns out the way i wanted it to be, the way it should have been.
So I guess, if theres any reader out there who is like me that is overlay harsh and negative to the point that it can be self distructiv, ask yourself what the worse thing thats happened in your life is and see if your life is as over dramatised as you'd liked to believe it to be.

...now i might be saying this now, when I'm in a rather happy stage, but lets see if i still agree with my friend when the shit hits the fan again.

Vintage thing, Yaya nom le plume Velvet dress, vintage boots, H&M mens hat, Topman skull crucifix(now i love that neckless so much i still have it on me even when i don't wear it) Topshop leather backpack.

...i feel afraid when i call your name

There will be blood....(VICE)

quiff hanger....

looking like an extra from The Craft (notice that I'm no longer on my bed...ive gravitated to my free couch today) Thanks for the dress panache had to cut it though, felt it needed more leg lol

(SALE) Buffalo Records - SOLD

Selling my extra pair of Buffalo's because greed becomes me....that and well I really want to go to London this July to see Soundgarden perform so I need to cash....(I hate not having a job)
So these babies are worn, but in rather stellar condition. There actually 15cm tall so there a heck allot intimidating than my black once (which are 10cm)
Size 38...
Asking price starts at 1400 Swedish kroner, so either you take em or beat em :). Oh i can ship to other countries so you figure out the equivalent of that and let me no.
Email me at studscoollady@hotmail.com or drop a comment.
........Please be quick, because i think I'm falling in love with them and might  end up wanting to keep them hahaha

A wave of mutilation

Wearing: Vintage button down maxi flannel dress(thanks to a nice person that decided to buy it for me :P) H&M mens hat(i don't come le hair anymore) Fishnet socks, One sued creeper and one leather creeper by underground(I've got to much black in my room i didn't notice my little mistake until i took them off) Alexander wang bag. 
-"My imaginary friends that come and hangout in my room whenever i spin a record". Who needs real emotions and people when you've got music. Those the same thing(brings you up and  down, in love, turned on...). Just that when it breaks your heart, you change song.....

P.S the Lemonheads show was amazing last night and got to meet Evan Dando who was so cuuuuutttteeeee. Awkward long haired greasy guitarist that walk around with a hunch might just be my kryptonite

envy.....

hair is still green with envy over those who lead a healthier more for filling life then mine. On the up(sorta to the side) side? Going to see the Lemonheads tonight...downside going by myself because thats what i do. That and complain allot but then again why wouldn't you....

REN AND STIMPY corporate greed can kiss my ass

could i have your attention please

change is about to come, change is upon us, but for now could i just say i updated STOLEN SUITCASE(where i sell shit i don't seem to wear anymore and hope you do) and would like totally appreciate it, if you bought something lol. No but seriously, buy something(prices are negotiable). 

Anywho more interesting things to come...at some point...in my lack lustre life

sneaky camera lady...

Sneaked a pic of Arvida (I'm sorry i can't call her Emma i prefer Arvida :P) hard at work. that afternoon spiralled over into a pretty eventful evening I can't get over how hilariously random life can be.

Excuse mee mee?

Thanks Anja for bringing my attenyion to a photo i was hoping had gotten lost in cyber space
me @Vice Nordic Relaunch party
by Isabelle, you can find the on editited version here

To (attempt to) do list

• Clean up thesis into a nice clear COHERENT document
• prepare for job interview on Tuesday
• please get the job!!!!
• new knee socks and suspenders
• make a decision to quite blogging or not

its not fun, its a time consumer i try to avoid. its not fair to anyone who actually reads it and keeps getti

ng let down.

Maybe what I need is like a months hiatus or something.... i don't know but for how long can I keep this up ?

oh and yes my bitter attempt on love left a sour taste in my mouth...love...please don't ever bother me again

yours sincerely

Lady Vivian

P.S am I the only one having a hard time finding colourful cloths this season?

(Yes i made this image lol)

Seriously I can't shop in a regular freaking store anymore without feeling that i must succum to the trends that is pastel ecstasy...

Maybe if it wasn't so pretty...you know had an ugly look yet pretty colors?

Pretty ugly maybe? Hmm might try to put together a look that could sum that ideal up.

Okay. Hiatus. Now. BYE. For like maybe now :P


washed my (green) hair today, feel all sexy and shit, my nails are green though

ISSUE 2: Out this Friday/sunday

If you havent read my first one please do, next zine will be out this SUNDAY though, so cancel your weekend plans and read it!!!!
Also as an apology for the late release of the second one there will be a buffer zine offered between this and the third issue.

murder suicide

.....god if you dare get my heart broken..ill never be able to forgive you
Wearing: vintage floral dress worn as skirt, vintage stripped knitted angora top and buffalo tower platforms...you know your typical 90's stuff

Ive been a bad blogger I know, I havent uploaded my latest zine i know(but will), I havent finished my thesis I KNOW!!!(but will....). Right now im the closest thing to love struck and literately havent been able to eat sleep think or see properly (seriously taught i was going to pass out when i went into town today, my body was so weak). I've actually never been like into a guy this bad before...going through some serious jordan cathalano vibes where its all

Rayanne: I think part of him is partly interested in you. Definitely.
I mean, he's got other things on his mind.
Angela: But that's the part that's so unfair. I have nothing else on my mind.
How come I have to be the one sitting around analyzing him in like microscopic
detail, and he gets to be the one with other things on his mind.....

I do this ALL THE TIME and its given me a migraine!

So everyone hold hands and chant for me so i dont get my heart broken cuz we all know how i DONT deal with anything well and go more into self destruct mode.

gummi sandals...

suzy was a headbanger

Just as my Alexander Wang Eugen bags chain straps breaks...another Wang comes in its place.
This dress is AH-Mazing and i cant get over the fact that i am lucky enough to have it in my possession.
From the fall 09 collection this dress it really stood out! once the modeled turned around and exposed a cut out back.
Cut out backs are like cleavage to me hahaha. Its defiantly won the title of "frekum dress" in my closet.
-frekum dress, a dress that WILL get you a man, and knock ALL competition out. It will get you free drinks and major ego. (Comes with lifetime gurantee)
A reader asked where she could get buffalo towers like mine here in Sweden and i must say if you insist on buying in store your best shot is sko uno.
Only downfall is that their majorly overpriced(like thousands of kroner) so id advice on keeping an eye out on ebay. Just search for buffalo towers(its worth it TRUST me).
However if you like the regular once which you also can find at sko uno, they go for about 700-900 kroner.