......please god let 2012 be my year

its christmas in sweden...but now I'm in southampton so when can i open my presents?

my new shoes are out of this world

...vintage. oh and yeah this blog is getting a bit to pink don't u think?

all i want for christmas is you....

1. Toki doki Vinyl toy
2.Buddy holly style waifers(optical ofcourse im fucking blind)
3.Leopard printed creepers
4.perfectly stripped and knitted kurt cobain-sweat-drenched jumper
5. Alexandr wang Hobo bag in burgundy(or the brenda one in burgundy...cuz we all bleed burgundy)
6. a mint condition Sailor moon doll by Bandi. I had an exact doll growing up, she was seriously my best friend(she even introduced me to my real first best friend later on in life) and id take her with me every where even to parties... now ive lost her in a bunch of boxes i dont dear to open.
7. Holes pretty on the inside on vinyl
8.Tickets to see NIRVANA Live in concert this March(1994)

a perfectly grey girl in a black and white world

sleepy hollow reality

They say you want what you know longer HAVE, I say I want what i never HAD, what I can't possibly GRAB, what nobody could personally CRAFT for me, a world where things just happen to make me GLAD. No I know longer could be SAD if I HAD what nobody COULD HAVE, what nobody SHOULD HAVE because its so far out in my imagination to for YOU to GRAB. It makes me SAD that I cant HAVE what nobody COULD HAVE, I don't want to SHARE my DESPAIR with people who don't CARE I just want to be FAIR, and be left alone, dreaming of things i COULDN'T possibly HAVE.

If I can't have a world then give me a ROOM, I place where I could at least decide if i wanted to INVITE YOU....

Hysteria

click image for song...

Daydreaming, because life is a NIGHTMARE

colour pallet: Arabian Nights

My winter colour inspiration...not on my face because I dont actually wear makeup unless im sick and then it usually just is foundation, mascara and eyebrows(so enough for me to get on when im leaving my apartment in the elevator...i live on the 10th floor)....but more of a winter apparel colour pallet.

I dont want to do this anymore

Blog that is...ill try but...i might not....or at least i cant keep up with the constant updates like the rest of the "bloggernistas" because thankfully my life dosent revolve around a fad and so despite having a life picking up my camera and thinking "oh this will be a nice post" is more like.....fuck that shit these shoes are on sale!
Anywho, until next time....

its been a while

since some form of collage outfit post was on here...

winter shades

did she say anything at all.....

wallpaper...(scratch me and you'll see how I feel)

new vintage black silk slip...love it to a tee...which is why last night i accidentally broke one of the straps...i guess nothing beautiful will last forever...or at least not with me.

....would you?

....a perfect day for a quite friend

come into my room....

okay...so ive been...distant.
BUT in my defense ive been distant from pretty much everyone so dont take it personally.
Finally feeling a bit more...awake, so I might get back into my normal routine of things like.........hmm, ill have to get back to you guys on that.
On the upside? ive updated my blog with something other than emo rant of discontent.

A couple of posts ago i asked you guys what youd do if life wasent such a burden and i never got around to answering that.
Well Id live by the beach and writte. Id have a nice trailer that Id live in, blasting all kinds of profanities. Id probably have separate trailer which id convert into a comicbook stand/vintage flee market thing where i the only way you could buy something is by exchanging it with something i want.
I dont know if life wasent such a burden id probably kill myself without feeling bad about it.
Anyway, here are some pictures of my room...there pretty old...nothings relly changed other than there being allot of dust everywhere, empty bottles and mustard stains on my sheets (i love eating hotdogs in bed... which my roomate finds highly disturbing) speaking of roomate ive got to do a post on her hair...its right about as red as my wall.
Talking about red...i hate that colour....yet my room seems to be dominated by it(the walls looked this way when I got the apartment)
apartments still pretty...minimalist....im not good with money......need to get a couch soon
hmm...im seeing smashing pumpkins tmrw?

this to, will do...for now

....speechless, well i don't blame yeah.

Ill try to get around to to a proper post soon...but this will sure be entertaining enough

Trish Summerville x H&M

OMG! Literarily this is my colour pallet and Lisbeth Salander is my kinda gal(part of the surprise which i have yet to come around to show you guys)

The H&M Girl With a Dragon Tattoo collection is set to launch exclusively at the Colette department store in Paris on 28 November, before rolling out to 180 H&M stores worldwide and online from 14 December.

stolen

from studded heart...thats how much i love this outfit

LOVE

Givenchy Haute Couture fall 08

...negative beauty

don't you love the on off play of these patterns...
i believe its styledevil?

....feeling bit down, considering pulling a knigttcat and never coming back...but ill try to come to my senses..just not today

PS. thanks Olivia, ill try not to be so melodramatic...if its not much..could you ask Ryan(gosling) to call me back...he hasn't returned any of my threats...i mean texts

AEON FLUX

marathon? YES PLEAS

its all human behaviour

i don't think id be so manic depressive if it was alright to do whatever the fuck you wanted.

if society wasn't as uptight as a beverly hills housewives face.....what would you do to your life, self, hair, boyfriend, career, money, body, family(?)

drop an answer, ill share mine with you guys later...

little sister...

can't you find another way?

dedicated to my little sister and how every summer when i come over we slowly morph into the same person.

Like walk down stairs and realise that where wearing the same freaking outfit(she's an indie hipster and im...not...but we tend to morph into the same person....that person that made us sisters)

you know that game you plaid as a kid with the slidey board shit to make a person out of mismatch personalities

that's sort of my life, a mismatch of personalities that sort of don't work

CHOCKER

Fade into you...

whats on my mind this month. Halloween, dying my hair purple because frankly why not? The song by MAZZY STAR, thats been popping up at the wrong time in the right place and I'm starting to believe that its trying to tell me something? Whats your interpretation of the song? Rookiemag(I'm to old for the place but i still love it) Witches and how i used to want to be one(a bad one of course), my spells that i used to pass of as poems as a kid(I've got one to make the wind follow my command) Bjork and her new album, Blue hair, being depressed and living in a shell of guck secondhand smoke. Early nights and late mornings, A boy, any boy, something to vent my angst out on, my vintage Lithium record by NIRVANA which i cherish so much.

Id love to love but I'm going to settle with hating it.

isolation

So since i moved down to Stockholm from Brighton my life has been sort of...AWKWARD.
I've got classes at uni on a freaking Saturday, everyone seems to be to old or illiterate for me to talk to. Outside of uni, Sweden isnt to "famed" for its night life and we all know how much I love to go out and never come back home. But the reality is....I barely leave my room anymore.
Which is kinda sad yes, but ive been doing allot of online shopping if its any consolidation?

Not so much working, sufficient amount of studying, but mostly allot of sulking.

The other day i went shopping on my own, which has become a new norm and i just hated that feeling of being the only one on the train with no clue about anything.
I mean if you ever catch me on the train...ill probably be sitting on both my hands in an effort to stop fidgeting while looking down on my feet listening to music nobody wants to hear.
Yeah im kind of sad, but they keep telling me ill get better.(right now im planning something a bit more sufficient....)
On the upside, got a great apartment of my dad, a really nice roomate who happens to be an old childhood friend...but my interior design skills has proven to not have translated just as well of my the sims 2 game.
you can probably catch a peek of my room in the background.
I've got to stop spending my money on clothes and start buying furniture soon...

then again that makes this life permanent...and id like to think of things as temporary...makes life easier to bear.

I don't know if u can tell but my hair is navy blue...I want to dye it purple though :) any good dye tips